Today is made for submission to my Fathers heart
Throwing away empty and vain pursuits
Search me and know me Father
From my inmost, out
I surrender fresh to you
In delight of your promise
To me, Your son
Thoughts seem to slow to a crawl, a stare into the night captures my face. My mind rests and my being sighs. A still moment blasts through the chaotic semblance of what I call life.
I am relieved. I am calmed. I am.
Paused and at peace, remindings to fight for these glimmers of lucidity.
To remember.. To reflect.. On His goodness and faithful love.
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Before me is a path that seems forever long. But it’s days are counted. While I do not know how many bad days and good days there will be, this one thing I do know. God is faithful every single step along the way and is worthy of all my devotion.
I do feel quite inadequate when viewing the grandiose vision of where the Lord is leading me. And I suppose I should. Part of it makes me feel crazy, and on the other hand, it assures me that God in fact is the one leading.
To love, serve and build alongside ministries and churches. To partner with individuals, bringing my faith as a hand in their back, pushing them on saying “yes” to the call of God on their lives and reminding them.
Nothing brings more joy than to walk with friends and comrades through the difficult times and into the “ah ha” moments. Those brief and pivotal minutes of seeing clearly just long enough to mark your course out according to what the Lord is revealing and setting trail.
I think fondly of the trail blazers who I have been graced to cross paths with. Bob Reagan. The Buchanans. The Evrist. People who have on more than one occasion been the hand in my back.
If anyone is reading this, remember the path the Lord has had you on. Think back on your first days of knowing the Lord and how far He has taken you. Farther still, the journey has just began.
… i feel so humbled beginning this year. It has been a year of triumph and victory born out of the most difficult of days. this year has been one of perseverance, easily.
Out of these ashes the Lord has brought about a… stronger than ever… feeling. ya know, it’s funny. although i am sure i am stronger than before, and much further along especially in the areas hope, perseverance, and faith, i feel… well, not the way i expected i would.
I do not feel weak, nor do i feel strong. however, i do feel a brilliance of confidence in where, when and how God has placed me.
The other night I woke up from a dream, where the Lord spoke something very clear to me.
“often we want to know every detail of where it is the Lord is calling us, when all He is wanting for us to go there.”
I believe that will be a word over this year for so many of us. one that will lead us to the victorious life we have been born for. shedding off the barriers of questions and fear to run with confidence.
crawling skin and aching heart
darkest night has passed
and new days heat smiles freshly on my back
turn and stand firm to promise
hold tight to crimson truth
A new me emerges from a cold and dismal night. Eyes widening to the vibrant rays of light that seem to dance and explode through the tree line I face. Stepping slowly and perhaps even pausing with each movement to be sure the next step is to be taken. I continue on, Shaken, but never giving up the pursuit of finding the path I seem to have lost.
My hands trembling as they remember the pain of loss and failure, and yet my heart seems to beat more strongly. So much, that it’s beating echoes, replacing the silence of my thoughts.
And there… in the echoing beat… and sprays of light… I remember.
untimid i stand amongst a thorn laden land
i resolve deeply
move as He moves
speak when He speaks
i will be the voice of His words and i will carry the love of His hands
my heart aches within me for change
and my mind, it dwells on His presence
my sights have never been so set as now
nor has my hope been so strong
for though i walk on unlevel grounds
I will be a light that will shine across the land
joy of life builds inside
expectancy and hope
richness of faith grows high
deepening and stretching
patience of process delights within
strengthening and emboldening
My name is as solid as a rock; And I will bear no longer enemies lie
Screams of demonic; Cries of fear; Will not shut me away from fate any longer