Today I venture into questions I’ve asked before… But, today, they seem so different…
Who am I?
I know this series of quandary seems odd for a 27 year old man to be asking, but none the less this must be asked. Since the Lord brought firm revelation of mal-perception I have lived from and by… a code of misconjuncted ethics believing I have been mistreated, misunderstood, mischaracterized, and misjudged…
Yesterday, I realized a new sense of quietness amid my usually full head… I began to question how much i really knew of myself without these “perceptions” present.
Much I know. I am called by the Lord. I am set apart for good works in Him. That i am confident of.
However, this revelation of 4M’s has left me… quite.
I have not recoiled to lick wounds, but rather, I have realized I am much more healed than I believed.
I am NOT mistreated. I am NOT misjudged. I am NOT mistreated. I am NOT misunderstood. The endless battle of an artist forever “different from the rest” is not mine.
So, where does that leave me now?… With a much more quiet mind than before. I am not fighting forever the up hill wars of discriminationalism.
I am still. Now left free to learn who I am. Me. Without the confines I myself created. I AM FREE TO RUN.
As me. Only a more mature me.